Left Only With Sorrow
Once again she won't come to see me.
Now I'm home all alone without any friends.
These people beside me, they don't really love me.
I've lost all to live for, and now I'm a lie.
I want her to hold me so closely to her hart.
I want her to say that she's my best friend.
Stick up for me and say that she'll help me,
Come to my aid, when I'm going to die?
Did you ever think that I, should just go away?
If I'm a bother, I wouldn't like to stay,
It's starting to hurt me, and I am so lonely,
Please won't you save me, cause I'm going to die.
She strikes me with words, cause those shouldn't hurt me,
Leaves me alone, cause that's what I am.
She can be angry, because that is alright,
But I can't be sad, so in silence I cry.
Alone now I'm crying of pain deep inside me,
I know I'm alone, and that she'll never come.
Should I be waiting for smiles and laughter?
I know that she has them, but will I survive?
Did you ever think that I, should just go away?
If I'm a bother, I wouldn't like to stay,
It's starting to hurt me, and I am so lonely,
Please won't you save me, cause I'm going to die.
I turn to the streets where all is for nothing.
Looking for things to ease my mind,
Should I not worry? She says that she loves me,
'Are words enough?' In darkness I sigh.
-June 10, 2005-
Starlight
The sky slowly stepped aside,
Rolling back its eyes and softly giving rest.
The stars awoke so I'm not alone,
As the moon filled the clouds with white light.
Swirls of translucent grace,
Tranquility to replace-
The pain in my heart, the strain in my mind.
For the stars are not born of tears,
Rather the light of dreams,
And the reincarnation of wishes.
-June 9, 2005-
Finding Footsteps
Oxygen slowly fills my lungs as I take the first true sky,
I pull it deep within me, rolling back my eyes-
Passion is the sky's, for it belongs to blue.
And I belong to wonder, but also the journey.
A person's life is many paths; some are better paved than others.
But when you find yourself down the highway remember this,
If you rush your days you will only die faster.
Life has an end that we all must one day face,
But the meaning is not a point in ones life-
But merely the footsteps we leave behind,
On a trail that no other man will ever retrace.
-May 15, 2005-